Thursday, March 15, 2012

Melatonin Review

So, Caden & I get home yesterday afternoon & the melatonin landed on the counter.

Don't you like my organization style?

Later, Stan got testy b/c the kitchen wasn't spic & span for him to create his lasagna masterpiece (Wednesdays are 'eat what we want' dinners...God bless Wednesdays.)

After cleaning things up for him (I'm a great wife), we (HE) got down to business & the house started smelling great.

Fast forward a couple of hours...

The directions for the melatonin say to take it 30 minutes before bedtime. My body has always had different timing, so I wanted to take it at 7:30. I went into the kitchen & looked on the counter.

No melatonin.

I asked Caden where he put it b/c he brought the bottle in when we got home. He walked around and then got upset b/c he couldn't find them & he thought it was his fault. Bless his sensitive heart.

I got Stan on the job b/c seriously, the man is a bloodhound. You need to sniff something out? Stan's the man.

We looked in every room in the house, even the LAUNDRY go.

I am FREAKING out b/c this is the miracle drug everyone recommended AND WE CAN'T FIND IT!!!!

Stan keeps his calm & opens the cabinet where we keep our medicine, & the melatonin bottle.

I had put it up when he was being snarky about the kitchen.

Ladies & gentlemen: I have been SOOOOO tired the past few days; I had NOOO idea I'd put them up.

Le sigh...

REVIEW: I give it a B- & here's why:

  • It helped me go to sleep, but my mind was still racing.
  • I got up at 3:30 to go to the bathroom & couldn't go back to sleep, BUT...
  • I felt rested.

I got up & cleaned the kitchen.

Is it just me or am I always cleaning the kitchen???

I did 2 loads of laundry.

And Stan & I got to spend some quality kidless time together.

So...I will take it again tonight & give it another shot. I can't fully blame the melatonin for not being able to go back to sleep. 'Anything Goes for Dinner' Wednesdays aren't really as fun as they sound & I wasn't feeling good when I woke up so that probably had more to do with it than anything else.

Stay tuned for 'Melatonin - the Sequel'


Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Still Learning

Working on night 3 of insomnia & trying not to play the 'If I go to sleep right this second, I'll get x hours of sleep.'

I do really well until about 10 or so. I get tired, turn off the laptop, lie down, then try to relax.

And then the brain starts going into overdrive: lesson plans, how to engage seniors after Spring Break, oh wow, I need to write that rec letter, & I need to read the novel that we assigned as extra credit over the break for the honors kids. WHY did we assign a novel??? Now I have to read it too!

And the list goes on.

After tossing and turning for 2 hours, I pulled out my bible & sat on my couch. Why is it, that this is my go-to fix-it when all else has failed?

Sleeping pills? Check
Relaxing music? Check
Aromatherapy? Check

Only after I've checked off the other, ME-centered items, do I choose to look at what I know is going to work.

I have a proven track record of going to the Word as a last ditch effort to solve a crisis, only to turn to the page of reading, and find the verse I need staring up at me. Tonight was no different, except it was a note I took in Sunday School a while back:

Rest cannot be achieved without faith and obedience.


Now, let me explain something. I do a lot of things right and I know I'm going to Heaven, but (& this is a biggie) I want to do things on my timetable, on my schedule, and for my reasons.

I've learned a lot & grown significantly in my walk with Christ since I walked the aisle at FBC Bryan at 16...but this is an ongoing battle with me.

I am not always faithful. I am not always obedient.

And right now, I most certainly am not achieving rest.

But I leave you with this verse I found as I scoured my bible for all references to rest:

Jer 6:16

Stand at the crossroads and look, ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, & walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls.